a simple compliment can mean so much.
i always remember the compliments that people give me..it makes me feel just a bit more confident about the person i am trying to grow into. determined, hard working, strong willed, a woman of faith and honor, yearning for knowledge, hungry to learn, hungry to live my life in the most full and adventurous way possible…i always compliment back and also randomly sometimes, because i hope that they feel that same small burst of confidence and drive for those few minutes or hours that may steer them into bettering themselves even that little bit more..everyone has something they’re working on…and with the peace that I have in my heart, knowing that God is here with me every step of this journey….through the most inspiringly euphoric of times and the most inspiringly depressing of tears…He is there. i know that He’s guiding me to what is best for my life and in the end, no matter what happens in this crazy world, everything will be all right. That peace and love that I feel because of His love for me is what keeps me yearning to live, yearning to explore this astonishing masterpiece that He has created. I believe that making something out of nothing or something new out of an old idea…materializing new ideas…creates a stronger connection with God…He is the ultimate Artist after all.
i love creating. i’ve been realizing a lot lately, it’s not the acting alone that i absolutely love to do…it’s the creating. And yes, as an actress, although there may be a script in front of me, i still create how i will interpret that character…that life. And along the way, I’m pulling out all of my very own emotions and really allowing myself to be completely raw to everybody watching. I am truly human at that moment because I’m in connection with my feelings, my body, my mind…all at once…every muscle in me is being used…and when i am truly creating a beautiful art work, i can feel the muscles tense up…i can feel my body working through molasses….i’m creating something….i’m creating emotions…i’m not only feeling the emotion at the moment, but i’m also creating an atmosphere for the audience….when i am one with my art, i make them feel emotions… i make them think..…….i think…i learn…
it’s not just “pretending to be someone else”…atleast not for me..sure there are the “actors” who just do it because they want to be famous one day and that’s the ooonly reason why they act…the ones who see it as a job and not their art….the ones who only do it because they want a mask….they don’t want to be real…they’re not real…and that’s why they don’t succeed in acting…or if they have, they’re not actually seen as a great actor…they’re just seen as a face and a name….
no, that is definitely not who i am..and that is not how i think acting should be pursued or viewed as.
true acting is true art….just like a true painter who’s paintings make people think and feel something…like a writer, who’s words pierce through the emotional walls of the the person who you’ve never imagined could cry or laugh or smile but do…just like the dancer who’s moves glide across their perspective of what is their stage, the one who, as your watching, you can’t help but to imagine yourself doing the same thing because you have felt the same exact way….music….the more obvious art that truly MAKES you feel something because of the words and intoxicating melodies,….the actor…the thespian…the director….they combine every one of these arts….and when the feelings all combine and all of the questions start being answered…when all of the thoughts start flooding your mind…when you feel that something in your chest and belly fluttering just that little bit (the little bit you don’t want to admit) because of what you felt, and the work of the entire thing looking so effortless…so seamless…but then to think of how many long, exhausting, hours that it took to get to what you saw as a perfected image…..you really can’t help but to appreciate the true art that it is… the complete abandon that you see in that actors eyes…to create the essence of who they are portraying….it’s art mixed with lots of psychology when you really start thinking about it….
it’s not for everyone…just like shooting a gun isn’t for everyone, or taking care of the elderly isn’t for everyone…or owning a business, or working for somebody else, or teaching a class, or racing a car, or surfing a wave, or judging a case….
acting isn’t for everyone, but don’t think that there’s no effort in truly mastering it.
truly…acting is celebrating the human life and thoughts…it’s appreciating the soul knowledge that you CAN feel…the knowledge that you ARE alive….and that there is something m o r e. that we can make ourselves into anybody we want, which means that we do have control of what we get out of it all..the free will….the overall collection of human perspective.
“Acting is the appreciation and celebration of acknowledging the overall collection of human perspective. It’s a praise to God for the free will He has given to us.”-Michelle Ramos♥
my mind at a glance